I have not blogged in a long, long time, but seeing some of my friends starting a new blog, got me excited to write again. During the past month or so, I have learned so much about myself. I think I even might have changed a bit. Some of them were difficult times; some of them were fun, carefree times. I can just say I am extremely glad to have gotten through the difficult times. I know it probably helped me to become stronger and it shaped me, but looking back at it now I realize how fragile I was during that time.
It had a lot to do with my relationship with my boyfriend. We sort of finished our “honeymoon phase” and it really started to show. I truly never knew I could have such wide ranging emotions over a period of one day, as I discovered lately. I started seeing problems in our relationship, that wasn’t nearly as big as I was making myself to believe it was. It messed with my head, I cried, I became angry, I felt hopeless.
I then just decided enough was enough, and I will try and handle this maturely and speak to him about what’s bothering me. This actually went down way better than I had imagined, and I wondered if I was maybe crazy for getting myself so completely worked up. I realized then that perhaps I was not crazy. That I was just over-tired, over-analytical and maybe a tad bit over-sensitive. I will need to work on that. For the time being, everything is going well. I will definitely try to keep it this way. But plans don’t always work out, and that is life.
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